Unbearable Agony: My Battle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden pain erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense discomfort around one eye that persists up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several causes, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts propose unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

National guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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